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"A man is as faithful as his options." Chris Rock
If I'd read this back in High School I would have agreed with Chris. I had no options, so sure I was confident in my faithfulness. Then Xander became an option with the whole clothing fluke thing, and I was unfaithful to Oz. Not unfaithful in that I slept with Xander because we so didn't do that. Just smoochies and seriously the last one that we did was so after we decided to not go behind Cordelia and Oz's back. But we thought we were going to die and I think that it should have been a free kiss without consequences. Hello, kidnapped by crazy drunken vampire. But this was Sunnydale and something is always going to happen. Like Buffy's birthday never goes right. Or like that Xander kiss with Cordelia seeing it and falling and getting a rebar in her body. Sorry, I so got off the point. The point is, I proved Chris right. But, that was before Tara. I guess everything in my life is before Tara and after Tara.
After Tara, I had the option of Oz again and I didn't go there. After Tara, Amy thought she was doing me a favor by getting some hot woman to be with me. But, I didn't want it. All I wanted was Tara. That's the thing about being faithful. It's not about the options or lack of them that you have. It's how much you love the person you want to be faithful to. I loved Tara with my whole being. She was everything to me, even when we weren't together because I was stupid I was still faithful to her.
Even after she died, I was faithful to her. I was with Kennedy and I thought she had my heart, but the truth was that Tara had that. Maybe she always will. I wish I could say I regret what happened with me and Kennedy. I do a little because I know I probably hurt her. The truth is, I'm glad I was with Kennedy after Tara. She showed me that I can love again, that there is something someone finds lovable about me. I regret that I couldn't be there for her. Emotionally as well as physically. Kennedy deserved that.
A man isn't as faithful as his options, a man/woman is as faithful as they want to be.
Muse: Willow Rosenberg
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Word Count: 393
If I'd read this back in High School I would have agreed with Chris. I had no options, so sure I was confident in my faithfulness. Then Xander became an option with the whole clothing fluke thing, and I was unfaithful to Oz. Not unfaithful in that I slept with Xander because we so didn't do that. Just smoochies and seriously the last one that we did was so after we decided to not go behind Cordelia and Oz's back. But we thought we were going to die and I think that it should have been a free kiss without consequences. Hello, kidnapped by crazy drunken vampire. But this was Sunnydale and something is always going to happen. Like Buffy's birthday never goes right. Or like that Xander kiss with Cordelia seeing it and falling and getting a rebar in her body. Sorry, I so got off the point. The point is, I proved Chris right. But, that was before Tara. I guess everything in my life is before Tara and after Tara.
After Tara, I had the option of Oz again and I didn't go there. After Tara, Amy thought she was doing me a favor by getting some hot woman to be with me. But, I didn't want it. All I wanted was Tara. That's the thing about being faithful. It's not about the options or lack of them that you have. It's how much you love the person you want to be faithful to. I loved Tara with my whole being. She was everything to me, even when we weren't together because I was stupid I was still faithful to her.
Even after she died, I was faithful to her. I was with Kennedy and I thought she had my heart, but the truth was that Tara had that. Maybe she always will. I wish I could say I regret what happened with me and Kennedy. I do a little because I know I probably hurt her. The truth is, I'm glad I was with Kennedy after Tara. She showed me that I can love again, that there is something someone finds lovable about me. I regret that I couldn't be there for her. Emotionally as well as physically. Kennedy deserved that.
A man isn't as faithful as his options, a man/woman is as faithful as they want to be.
Muse: Willow Rosenberg
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Word Count: 393
